Back to school… Both Rachel, who just turned 7, and Allison (5), are in school this year. Honestly… I had no problem with Rachel going off to school. She was still 4 when she entered Kindergarten, but we weren’t in a position to pay for pre-school… so off she went to Kindergarten. She was ready and excited and I was proud. She was also perfectly healthy.
Allison, on the other hand, isn’t perfectly healthy. She has Type 1 Diabetes. I’ve been taking care of her at home. I’ve been her playmate. Her giggles filled my office as I worked. We ate lunch together each day.. even last year, when she went to pre-school half day. Now someone else will be taking care of her all day.
I was sad. My life was changing. Several things changed on that Monday. I won’t get into them all right now… but sending both of my girls off to school sent me into a sort of sad, downward spiral. I didn’t even want to get out of bed. What would I do all day? Why was the house so quiet? Is Allison’s blood sugar stable? Would she tell someone if she wasn’t feeling right?
The questions overwhelmed me. I burst into tears in the school nurses office. She and I had a somewhat rocky relationship last year because having a diabetic student… even half day… was a new thing for our school. But we made it through and we set a plan for Kindergarten, along with our Endocrinologist. And now that Kindergarten was here… I was scared, lonely, and full of anxiety.
The first week was rough. I got a call daily and Allison was experiencing low blood sugars. But in the few weeks since… things have stabilized. And as things stabilized for her… I found that things stabilized for me.
Being a Mom isn’t easy but how we react to life’s changes make all the difference. How do you cope with the changes in your life?