I’m Not Perfect… and That’s O.K.

I wonder if everyone feels like this at times or if it’s just me? Sometimes I feel like I’m a tad bit OCD when it comes to my relationships. I’ve always had a hard time reading people. I often feel like things are my fault… even when they aren’t. I take the blame many times just so someone else doesn’t have to feel like crap. And when relationships get uncomfortable… I feel like I have to fix them.

Is this part of who I am? Sometimes, being nurturing is a wonderful trait. I’m thoughtful and efficient. But what if the other party doesn’t want or need to be nurtured? What if there’s nothing wrong with the relationship and I still feel like there is? That’s where I get anxious. The anxiety builds up in me. I need to resolve things. I need a resolution.

Or do I? No relationship is perfect. No friendship is perfect. No working relationship or even marriage is perfect. Sometimes, I have to remind myself of this. I have to remind myself that I held up my end of the bargain. That’s all I can do. I can’t take on everyone else’s burdens or eventually I’ll fall in a heap to the floor.

I’m not perfect. I’m just me… and that’s o.k.